There are so many things I "should" be doing right now instead of this...reading blogs and writing in my own blog but right now at this moment I don't care.
I "should" be cleaning my house...after having my daughter and her boyfriend here for the last week, along with a lot of company that came to stay and see them, my house needs to be put back together.
I "should" be working harder on the piles of laundry before it gets out of hand.
I "should" be compiling a list for the grocery store so I can actually make some meals, which leads to I "should" be going grocery shopping in the near future...which only leads to I "should" cook a decent meal...which leads to I "should" eat something and that something "should" be at least half ways healthy.
I "should" be doing some sort of activity, (like taking them outside on such a beautiful day) with the 3 little people that are running free through out the house, making quite the mess with their toys in every room...while chasing each other, screaming and laughing and probably wondering why I am not seeming to care. Which only leads to I "should" be helping them pick up all these damn toys before it gets out of hand.
I "should" be thinking of a project to do with the kids I take care of at work later today. I "should" be excited to go to work since I have missed work for the last week but I'm not.
I "should" be planning to get some exercise while the 3 little people nap because I know I not only need it but it would probably help me to feel better.
I "should" be on the phone making calls to the lawyers for our custody case and for my injury case to see what is going on and to keep things moving forward.
I think about all these things I "should" be doing..."should" be caring about but I just don't care. I "should" be figuring out how to get "me" back and doing what I need to do to feel better. All I want to do is hide under a blanket, with my loud fan blowing so I don't hear all the noise in this house and just sleep...and forget about all the things I "should" be doing. I want peace and quiet and everything to just STOP. I really "should" do something about this.