There are so many things I "should" be doing right now instead of this...reading blogs and writing in my own blog but right now at this moment I don't care.
I "should" be cleaning my house...after having my daughter and her boyfriend here for the last week, along with a lot of company that came to stay and see them, my house needs to be put back together.
I "should" be working harder on the piles of laundry before it gets out of hand.
I "should" be compiling a list for the grocery store so I can actually make some meals, which leads to I "should" be going grocery shopping in the near future...which only leads to I "should" cook a decent meal...which leads to I "should" eat something and that something "should" be at least half ways healthy.
I "should" be doing some sort of activity, (like taking them outside on such a beautiful day) with the 3 little people that are running free through out the house, making quite the mess with their toys in every room...while chasing each other, screaming and laughing and probably wondering why I am not seeming to care. Which only leads to I "should" be helping them pick up all these damn toys before it gets out of hand.
I "should" be thinking of a project to do with the kids I take care of at work later today. I "should" be excited to go to work since I have missed work for the last week but I'm not.
I "should" be planning to get some exercise while the 3 little people nap because I know I not only need it but it would probably help me to feel better.
I "should" be on the phone making calls to the lawyers for our custody case and for my injury case to see what is going on and to keep things moving forward.
I think about all these things I "should" be doing..."should" be caring about but I just don't care. I "should" be figuring out how to get "me" back and doing what I need to do to feel better. All I want to do is hide under a blanket, with my loud fan blowing so I don't hear all the noise in this house and just sleep...and forget about all the things I "should" be doing. I want peace and quiet and everything to just STOP. I really "should" do something about this.
1 comment:
hey!
you should take a minute or two out of the day for you, maybe at babe's nap time,
paint your toe nails or something while they nap,
you should take time for yourself, maybe early in the morning while having coffee, before the kiddies wake up,
you should take time for yourself, well just because. i don't know your schedule, but you should work on some time for you,
i know it's easy for me to say, i don't have 3 little ones running around. i don't know what to tell you. i just wish you could take a little time out for just...YOU.
let me know how this "time for you " goes.
our basement walls are up, we get them poured on friday, our dream is becoming a reality, every single day. it's hard to believe sometimes. but it's been alot of work, work, work. i will blog soon.
take care okay and try to get some time for you!!!
~cheryl~
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