I know that calling a person "evil" sounds harsh...I know that evil is a strong word because it isn't just calling someone bad, it's saying something deeper then that. I have known my share of not so nice people...people that you would call "bad" but I also have known a few that I would call evil, because there was something deeper and meaner to their badness...it's something that makes the hair on the back of your neck stand up. Evil in it's purest form comes as a disguise of niceness and love, when all along what lies underneath is quite the opposite. Evil tries to make you think they are your friend when they are not. Evil not only stabs you in the back but they go right for your heart. Sometimes evil smiles at you...sometimes they come bearing gifts...sometimes evil has a beautiful face. Sometimes we are related to them and love them.
For the last 5 days evil has been a guest in my home...in my sanctuary...in my safe haven. I invited it here to stay with us because I didn't want to believe that it is what it is...evil. I did it because I love her and want her to be a part of my family...mostly, I did it for my husband. My home has been invaded with evils ugliness and selfishness, clothed in all it's glory and it created an atmosphere of chaos and strife. Within 24 hours of entering our home, this evil, took over my two happy, well behaved little people and stole them away...not in the physical sense but in every other way. It left in their place two little people that I don't know anymore...two whining, tantrum throwing, screaming, baby talking children.
Little man, who hasn't wet in his pants once or wet the bed in 6 weeks, has been wetting his pants and wet the bed every night since evil came inside the door. Please know that in no way do I blame them for leaving, because I know they are just reacting to the evil that came to visit...I think part of me has been hiding away too. Evil bought many gifts while staying with us...made promises of ponies, puppies and kitties...evil smiled at me while making a mockery of all that we had accomplished in the last year and a half. Evil went against everything we asked of her.
Tomorrow morning evil will leave our home. Once evil is gone, I will walk through the house and pray...pray that any evil residue that she left behind will be absent from this home. And then, I will take my two little people into my arms and love them back to themselves...I will bring them back to the peace and harmony that they once knew. We will leave this behind us as we drive away tomorrow for our vacation in Florida.
Evil will not ruin us...will not stop us from moving on ahead. Evil taught us a lesson and in the days ahead when aunts, uncles and cousins are loving, playing and spending time with our little people, we will have time to catch up on the sleep we did not get while she was here...so that we can talk alone, with clear and open minds. We will figure out how we will handle evil and to what extent she will be allowed into our lives in the future. Evil brought turmoil into our home but she did not win. Evil will not win.
****I apologize if I have been absent from reading or commenting on your blog this past week. This visit has consumed my life and I have had very little sleep since last Wednesday night.