We frail humans are at one time capable of the greatest good and, at the same time, capable of the greatest evil. Change will only come about when each of us takes up the daily struggle ourselves to be more forgiving, compassionate, loving, and above all joyful in the knowledge that, by some miracle of grace, we can change as those around us can change too. Mairead Maguire
I came across this quote recently and while for many, it’s words will not have deep meaning, it does for me. Mainly, because it is a miracle of grace that, not only am I still alive, but have completely changed from the person I once was. I have written these posts…Very Much Alive…Seasons of Change…Through the Eye’s of Grace…these posts tell of my journey, my changes, that brought me to where I am today. These were written in my first months of blogging and long before most of you read my blog.
While some will judge me for these things, others can find hope for change, either for themselves or for a loved one that struggles with these things. I am willing to risk judgement because of those that walked before me...those that reached out their hands and their stories to me, so that I might have hope of better day's...they are the one's that taught me to take a risk and to pass it on...it is not mine to keep.
If you don't have time to read the old posts, they are about the person I once was, the mistakes I have made, the demon’s I have faced and over come and people I have wronged. These things came at a price. They almost cost me my life and that is something I will never forget. Even though I am no longer that person, they are still a part of my story. Even though those things no longer define who I am today, they are a part of my evolution.
This weeks Spin Cycle is about change. As I thought about change this week and reflected upon all the changes that have come through out my life, I have a renewed sense of hope. I am reminded of how far I have come and I am so thankful for the life I live now. I embrace the changes that have come out of my life because these changes have been my salvation. After I reread my old posts, I went to the mirror and looked at myself...and I cried. I cried because I am loved, and forgiven.
It’s because of these changes in me, that I see every person I come into contact with, through the eye’s of grace. It’s why I cannot judge. It’s why I choose love over hate. It's why my heart is full of compassion and why I see things in people that many miss. It’s why I choose the way of peace over fighting to be right. It’s why I freely give to those in need. It’s why I get back up when I fall down. It’s why I choose to smile, laugh, dance, sing and enjoy life. It's why every day is a gift to me, even if I am having a bad day(or week). It’s why I believe that other people can change…because I did and I lived to tell about it.
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