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Monday, April 20, 2009

Two Weeks!

It's 2 weeks today that I have gone without smoking! Yes, it's still crazy hard. And yes, I still crave cigarettes but I haven't given in to them. And no, I didn't think I would make it to this point...hell, I didn't think I was going to make it through the first day, let alone 14 whole days. I am facing my giants one day at a time.

This past weekend was my first big test. We had a couples shower for two of our good friends. I knew there would be lots of drinking and smoking. We couldn't miss it but part of me wanted to because deep down I thought I would be too weak to resist. At one point in the night, I wanted to smoke so badly that I went into the house to warm up and to take a break from being around it. I sat in the house and told myself all the reasons why I wasn't smoking...having to tell all of you that I smoked was one of the reasons I didn't. Knowing that I would have to start this whole hellish process over again is another reason I didn't. It was a long night but I made it.

Going into the weekend, everyone told me, that it would be okay if I gave in and had one. But, I know better. I know me. I know that one would never be enough. I know that one will lead me back to smoking.

I know I have a long ways to go before I'm in the clear. I know that I still have a lot of giants butts to kick. But, for today, I am proud of me. I am proud I have made it this far. And I have all of you to thank....so thank you, for supporting me and helping me to believe that I can do this. Seriously, you guys rock!






29 comments:

Jason, as himself said...

Yay for you!!! I'm so proud of you. Especially how you passed the test of the party. Keep it up!

Fragrant Liar said...

Congrats!! You are so brave and determined, you deserve to be smoke-free! I am thinking of you and sending you the cleanest air under the clear blue sky.

Sandi said...

I am so proud of you! Stay strong Sister!

The Panic Room said...

that is so rad! I am just over two weeks so we are pretty much going thru the same feelings. I have smoked since I was 13 and am now 34. yuck!!! what a waste. keep up the good work. I am proud of us :)

bernthis said...

are you kidding me? what you did was incredible and that my dear is COURAGE.

Don't kid yourself. cigarettes are one of the hardest if not THE hardest addiction to quit so yeah, you were amazing.

Life with Kaishon said...

I am SO happy for you! So happy I can't stand it! I am praying for some other very dear people in my life that they can conquer this giant!

PS You have to try the bliss. They have it in dark. You will die it is so good. I am NOT kidding.

SSG said...

One day at a time, all you have to get through is today. And you've done 2 weeks already!
Great willpower, and congratulations!

Chicken Herder from Westville said...

Congrats to you!
That was a hard thing to do.
You are amazing!

Jan said...

OH, GOOD FOR YOU!!

You should be proud - I know how hard it was to get through that party without a cigarette. Trust me, I know.

I'm proud of you too. You're going to make it.

SciFi Dad said...

That is awesome. I am so proud of you. Keep it up!

Busy Bee Suz said...

The smoking/drinking party is the hardest part and you passed.
I remember after I had quit for about 9 months and on new years eve I took a drag off a friends cigarette...it tasted SOOOOO nasty. I knew then, that I was done.

I am so happy for you...good job.

Jeannie said...

Good for you! I absolutely despise people who try to tempt you to do something you have decided not to do - whether it's smoking, drinking or eating or whatever. I'm quite rude.

Bina said...

I am so proud of you!!! And I can't imagine anyone telling you to have "just one". That's not being very supportive. In fact, if I were there and still smoking, I would go some place where you couldn't even see me, or I just wouldn't smoke.

You are doing such a fantastic job! Do you feel better? Can you tell a difference?

Pseudonymous High School Teacher said...

Yay!! So proud of you.

LaRae said...

WAY TO GO! Keep hangin in there!

Kathryn Magendie said...

WHOOOHOOOOOOO! SO proud of you!!!!!!!

Kathryn Magendie said...

did I say I was proud of you _--saying it again! PROUD!

Debbie said...

There you go! You are well on your way:)

LPC said...

Go you. And so good for the grandkids...

Stepping Thru said...

You can do this! When I quit smoking some 30 years ago it was terrible. I was a single Mom, I was lonesome and drinking too much. I just had to give one thing up at a time. It takes an incredible amount of courage to tackle an addiction. I'm proud of you.

Midlife Mama said...

^5 Good for you!! (that's a high five, btw. LOL)

That party must have been sooo hard. You did it though, girlie. You did it!! Yay you!!! Congrats and like they say, one day at a time!!

gram said...

i am soooooooooooooooooooo proud of you!!! i quit in 2001 on one of the worst jobs of my life with the worst stress ever, and i did it cold turkey. i know you will say to yourself one day that you are sorry you didn't do it sooner. i don't have much time to blog right now, we are again working long hours, appreciate you popping in once in a while, i look forward to your visits. good luck my friend and i am soo sure you will make it. take care okay, one of my reasons for quitting was i wanted to live a little longer (hopefully) to enjoy my grandchildren. that reason was enough for me. good luck,
hugs,
~cheryl~

Cristin said...

Good for you!! I quit twelve years ago and a cigarette still sounds like a good idea sometimes... so does a crack pipe though... I resist!!!!

Beth said...

I am so proud of you! If you were at my school, I'd let you pick out TWO prizes from the treasure chest!

Smart Mouth Broad said...

Bravo! What a huge milestone! You can do it!

Shangrila said...

YAY!!! You are AWESOME! I am amazed that you not only resisted the ultimate test for a smoker (being in a social situation and drinking) but you withstood peer pressure and STILL didn't smoke!

I was a smoker FOR YEARS (I quit when I had kids) and it's just been the last few years that I was finally able to think of myself as a non-smoker (up to that point, I felt like I was a smoker deep down inside that would always choose to smoke if left to her own devices, if that makes any sense?)

I'm so glad that you're taking good care of yourself! My mom just quit on her birthday (the 19th) and is also toughing it out-so hard to watch her suffer, but so good to know that she's buying us more time together. Be strong, and know that I think you ROCK!!!

Tricia said...

I've been away, but thinking of you and hoping this new journey is going well. Congratulations to you. I'm so, so, so very proud of you!!!

queenofphrump said...

I am proud of you too. This is quite a mind over matter test of strength. In this day and age not very many of us are taking on the kinds of tests we need to prove our own will to our own selves. You inspire me to take a good look at some of the things that control my body and mind, sugar namely, and think more about what I should do to overcome my body. You Rock, as usual! Keep it up and keep us updated. We are your readers, your applause committee and your accountabilibuddies. Love your spirit.

midlife slices said...

I'm proud of you too!!! Way to go and please stay strong and beat this giant once and for all. HUGS