When little one’s get sick, life comes to a stand still. Rearranging work schedules, cancelling plans and staying home. Just when I think one of them is better, they are not. More plans cancelled. Yes, it’s disappointing but in the big picture of life, being here with them will always win out. Instead of going with my husband to the holiday party, I sat holding the 2 of them while watching Rudolf, one more time. As the 2 of them snuggled up against me, little man voiced the words that were already in my mind, “This is the best.”
As I was cleaning up puke late last night, I looked at little man with his big brown eyes and this feeling of how blessed I am to be here in this moment with him. Slowing down and coming to a stop helps my perspective to be where it is suppose to be.
I woke up this morning to little lady’s face right in mine, saying “Morning my little mommy. Morning to my best mommy.” As we snuggled and whispered to each other in the morning darkness, I inhaled her sweetness.
Oh how I love my love filled life. We may not have material or financial wealth but we are so rich in this commodity called love. I look at the tree with it’s lopsided branches with 3, 4 or even 5 ornaments hanging in a cluster from the little’s decorating. It is beautiful because it is their master piece. They plug in the lights and just sit in front of it….or they lay under it…and have such adoration over something so simple.
A few years ago I bought this little Christmas porcelain tea set at Good Will and I had kept saying that when they get older we can bring it out. Last weekend, little lady discovered this tea set in a box. I seen her eyes light up and I just knew the time is now. If I wait until they are old enough to ensure none of it gets broken, they will no longer be interested. The time is now. They have spent hours playing with it. They have served me food and tea and coffee. Yes, a plate has already been broken. And I didn’t care because I know that the time is now for such simple pleasures.
I love our beautiful safe haven from the world. I love that inside these walls we are not stressed about Christmas or worried about gifts. We celebrate in our own special simple ways. Life is good.
One good thing about not having a lot of money for things like Christmas is that you don’t have the stress of shopping. Don’t get me wrong, I love buying gifts for others…especially my children who don’t ask for anything except recipes, hummus and granola. In a perfect world, I would buy them the world. In our not so perfect world, I give them my love and all that comes with it. And they give me theirs. They give me so much more than what I ever dreamed of getting from my children. What more could I ask for?
The thing is, none of us go hungry, we all have plenty of clothing, we have roofs over our heads, we have running vehicles, we have our health, we have plenty of toys, we have shelter and warmth from the cold. We have jobs. Some of us are in college.We have so much. On top of all that we have so much love. Miles may separate us from being together but no matter how much time passes or distance separates, we are bonded as one family.
Yet, there are those that have none of these things. There are those that are walking the streets here in the cold temperatures of Minnesota, with no place to go. There are those that haven’t had a decent meal in days. There are those that have to humble themselves to begging on the streets. There are those that haven’t a clue to what it means to be loved or to be part of family like mine. Their stomachs are empty but so are their hearts. To be barren of food, shelter and love. In the light of this, how could I be sad about not buying a Christmas present?
This is why, we as a family, spend time, each day praying for those less fortunate then us. This is why we as a family count our many blessings instead of feeling sorry for ourselves. This is why we as a family reach out to those less fortunate then ourselves. This is why we can’t ever stop seeing our own abundance. This is why we can’t stop seeing those that are barren. Dear Lord, please don’t ever let us stop seeing.
Yesterday afternoon, I had the blessing of reading this post by Meredith of The Things We Carried, called I See You. Wow! You must go read this. Right now. Go. You will be glad you did.
Then this morning, I had the blessing of reading this post by Roxy of Woman of Essence, called Love Endures. Again, Wow! You must go read this too. Go. You will be glad you took the time.
As I close this post, I reach my hand through this computer screen to those that need a hand… “I hear you.” “You are heard.” “You are important.” “You matter.” “You are loved.” “I’m so glad you here!”
To those of you that are “full” like I am, of such love and abundance, please reach out to those around you and share your abundance. Open your eyes and see. I know many of you already are. Bravo!
Sunday blessings to each one of you. Hug your loved ones today. Tell them you love them. Peace and joy to you today!
Much love & many hugs, Lori