I went to my 30 year class reunion last night. I really hadn’t planned on going. To be totally honest, it was partly due to the fact that I have put on all this weight this past year. I also knew that many of the people I would want to see wouldn’t be there because they either didn’t make it to graduation or their diploma's weren’t signed. The fact that my diploma was signed didn’t really mean that I had earned it. Back then the teachers got away with passing kids like me through, just to be rid of us. Considering how I was back then it was completely understandable.
When I went to my reunion 10 years ago, many people made comments like “I can’t believe you are still alive.” I know that I am completely different from who I was back then but who I was back then, is how they remember me. It’s embarrassing to be remembered in this way so I was hesitant to go back to that.
Anyways, a couple of my best friends from childhood started sending me messages through face book about going so at the last minute we decided to meet up.
I am really thankful that I did. Reconnecting with the couple of friends was very nice. I had figured right, many who I would like to have seen, didn’t come.
Yes, I was reminded of the crazy and stupid things I did back then. Yes it’s embarrassing but it also makes me really grateful that I changed before it was too late. It also made me very thankful for the life I have now and that they could see the positive changes in me.
I found that some people had not changed at all, except for looking older. For some that is a good thing and sadly for others it’s not.
I wasn’t the only one that had put on weight. I was actually told by many that I look great so that was kind of nice to hear. :)
I won the prizes for having the most children and grandchildren, which was pretty ironic to everyone because I was the one that always said I was never having kids. It was fun getting to talk about my husband, children and grandchildren with pride. Once again I was reminded of how blessed I am and how thankful I am for the ones that call me Mom, Mommy and grandma.
Sadly, I heard about friends that never grew out of the drug scene and have totally messed up lives because of it. I heard of those that have died and how sad that I never knew of their passing's.
Going to my reunion was like taking a walk back to my past. I was reminded of the road I once walked and would rather these things be forgotten. Yet I am thankful that because of grace I am not stuck back there and don’t have to hide in shame.
Going to my reunion has given me a renewed sense of gratefulness for who I am now and the life I live.
I really hope to stay connected with the couple of good friends that I reconnected with last night. Thirty years ago I lived a life of recklessness and I am remembered for it. I hope in the years to come, I can be remembered for who I am now.
Do you attend your class reunions? Do you keep contact with the people of your past? Are you a lot different from who you were then?
Until next time, love & hugs, Lori