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Friday, July 30, 2010

Life is something

Thank you for the birthday wishes! My daughter is a big stinker as she knows that I not only struggle with being the center of attention but I like to have my birthday come and go without much notice. Not sure why but I’ve been that way for as long as I can remember. Anyways…I survived it and your birthday wishes and her intent were sweet.

It has taken me forever to get here. Again. I miss all of you terribly. I do stop by your places on occasion but it is rare that I have the time, energy & the hands to comment since when I sit down a child seems to  find their way onto my lap.

I keep searching for quiet moments but they are so few and far between unless I stay up late at night, like tonight. But God help me tomorrow morning when little man wakes me before it’s barely light out, just to say “good morning and I love you.”

I seriously wonder why I can’t keep up. It’s like I am constantly busy, needed or just can’t say no to reading a story or whatever it is I’m being asked to do with the little’s or my sweet grandson.  I see how many of you write beautifully and often and manage to still live your lives. You amaze me!

As much as I crave the connections I have found in this great place of blogmanity, I am considering shutting my blog down. At the thought of stopping all of this, I want to cry. I am giving it some time, since it is summer. And to think I had considered starting a cooking blog to record the experiences of cooking with the little’s (Rachel Ray & Emeril). After doing lots of cooking/baking with them today, I jokingly told them that we should have a blog called “Our messy kitchen”, to which little man said, “That would be a perfect name since our kitchen is so messy!”

Oh yes, with their help it is very messy but I wouldn’t want it any other way. :) 

My granddaughter and youngest son that were here visiting from Florida, left a week ago yesterday. After 5 weeks with her and 4 weeks with him, my home feels empty without them. My heart still aches to hug them, cook them their favorites foods and to hear and see their smiles/laughter. It makes me miss my daughters that were unable to come home this year.

Yes, I know this is the way it is suppose to be.  I know I am the one that gave them their wings. But, it doesn’t mean that I have to like that they flew so far away.

In my granddaughters words,” I had the summer of my life. Everything about it was perfect.” And it was except for it coming to an end.

In other news…my husband and I are working towards me quitting my outside job and just being at home. Changes are happening for my daughter who has been caring for them while I work, which means we would need to find other daycare. The cost of daycare for 2 children is not cheap and combined with driving costs, it really cuts down my income.

I never thought in a thousand years that I would be trying to figure out things like daycare or whether to send little man to kindergarten or not. Little lady will turn 4 next Wednesday, which means we have had them that long. We always say she was our wedding present. When she hears this, she beams at knowing she is so special.

The little’s would more than love to have me home all of the time and I would love the opportunity to keep up with them and everything here at home. Yet, my heart is torn because I love my job. I love the woman I care for.

My health is slowly getting better. I think. I am still pretty tired but not as much. The pain is still my constant friend and even though I won a court battle a couple of months ago in favor of my continued care for my injuries, it seems this battle will continue on as I have another court hearing scheduled for September. I do not want any more surgeries and the drugs for pain are a thing of the past. My doctor is presently fighting for me to get acupuncture since it did help me when I was in the hospital 6 years ago. I am not holding my breathe. :)

Life is sure something. Just when you think you got it all down, something changes. You have a choice to go with the flow or try to fight your way back up stream. I am choosing to go with the flow.

Until next time (whenever that may be), love & hugs, Lori

PS I just looked at the clock and it read 12:07 AM…still, I cherish this moment of peace & quiet and getting to write.



Friday, July 16, 2010


PSST... over here..



over here, come closer...


okay... we must whisper.

Don't be alarmed, its not Lori here today. No today, is a secret mission that, I, her daughter, must accomplish. What is the mission, you ask?

Its to get the word out that tomorrow is


I know that she would never-ever spill the beans, but after the year she has had, she deserves all Birthday wishes that you can give!

SO flood her with well wishes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY comments, and tons of love! :)

I am doing this, even with the risk to my life! You never know what she'll do when she finds out! (ha!) Now I am going to Charlies Angels my way out of here, and pray for the best!


Tuesday, July 13, 2010

The Faces of Summer

My life has been crazy busy since I last wrote. Adding 2 more to this zoo crew has not only increased the fun and chaos, but the amount of groceries, cooking, laundry and noise level as well.

When I am not working, or tending to the zoo and it’s crew, I have been spending all my time with these people that I am crazy about…


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mitch and jasonlori and adam

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There hasn’t been much time for writing or visiting you or being on the computer. As much as I miss it, I am loving every second I spend with my favorite people.

We’ve driven go carts and played mini golf..


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   IMG_1969 Some went to a Minnesota Twins game. Not me. Needless to say, I was jealous.

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Of course with living in the land of 10,000 lakes there has been some fishing…kids fishing with rayna

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A high light,has been hanging out with some of our favorite cousins.




We watched caterpillars come out of their cocoons…

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…as butterflies!

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We held the butterflies…

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….and said goodbye as they flew away.

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Tubing and water fun…

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Most of the time, these little faces are dirty with the remains of ice cream, pop cycles, berries or whatever it is that they have eaten. Nonetheless, their smiles wrap themselves around my heart.


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kids at beach

…..and boating


….and building sand castles…

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we have an

auntie that

is so talented

for such things!

Someone from Florida talked me into cutting a Mohawk for little man…

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And he loves it! I was going to cut it the next day but he insists on keeping it so I haven’t  had the heart to cut it yet.


We went strawberry picking 3 times.

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We made yummy treats like strawberry rhubarb crisp…

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…and strawberry rhubarb pie…

strawberry ruhbarb pie… and strawberry jam…and now we have lots of strawberry's in our freezer for future treats….hopefully for some strawberry rhubarb slush this coming weekend.

We mastered the art of making homemade pizza’s on the grill…

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After I cook one side of the dough, they each put on their own toppings. They love making their own pizza’s… brittanys pictures July 12 173brittanys pictures July 12 167 brittanys pictures July 12 176

….but love eating it even more!

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If you have never tried pizza that is made on the grill, you must! It not only tastes better, it keeps all the mess and heat outside! We recently made buffalo hot wing pizza and it was fantastic.

We brought the zoo crew to the zoo…

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We tried to get them to stay there but they insisted on coming back home with us.

Playing dress up and having photo shoots by this wonderful 11 year old girl…


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Eating lots of ice-cream, pop cycles and freezes'…


And of course playing with the water hose…

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Making funny faces…


And picnics…

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Lots of camp fires and roasting marshmallows…


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It wouldn’t be summer without parades…IMG_2139 


…and all the candy we get at them!

We’ve already seen a couple and will see another this coming weekend.

Watching fire works…

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It’s lots of fun eating popcorn & parade candy while waiting for the fireworks to start!


A family poker pub crawl for the adult kids in the family…

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…with my crazy fun family…

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My most favorite moments have been of not doing much of anything but hanging out and just being together.

This summer I have been convicted about the importance of living in the here & now…of embracing those I love and not letting unimportant things steal time away from us.

Life is too short to stand by and watch it happening. Life is too short to not participate in it.

I wish there were pictures of all the cuddling we have done…and of all the hugs & kisses that fill up my days.

I constantly take pictures in my head for the days they are gone from here.

I wish you could hear the laughter and giggles…their little voices…the little conversations that I over hear that are priceless.

I embrace all of it because I know all too soon it will grow quiet here and I will yearn for their voices to fill up my home once again.

Never in a thousand years did I think I would be here surrounded by such love.

I did not ask for all of this but somehow it found me.

It really is true…I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I am, right where I’m suppose to be.

Right here in the middle of all this crazy chaos being called Mom, mommy and grandma.

Even though I am still not feeling good, and I am in pain, life is good.

I wish there was a way to bottle up all this goodness.

I wish for all people to have such an abundance of love in their lives.

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They toss & turn my heart.

I hope your summer is filled up with such smiles!

I know many of you are having great summers too…I have been stopping by and reading occasionally but haven’t had time to comment. I do think of each of you and look forward to stopping by your place soon!

Love & hugs, Lori